One of the beautiful things about biblical writing is that it does not whitewash human thought processes. Even amongst those who wrote under God’s inspiration, such as King David, we still see honestly into their hearts: “Arise to help me; look on my plight! … Rouse yourself to punish all the nations; show no mercy to wicked traitors” (Psalm 59:4,5). David is called “a man after God’s own heart,” and he dreams of his enemies being destroyed by God’s mighty hand.
Yet we know from David’s life that despite his calls for vengeance against Saul, he did not personally act against him. David waited for God’s own timing in Saul’s life. David protected Saul’s life and showed kindness to his descendant.
Don’t be afraid to look honestly at your own desire for justice. It comes from the depths of the soul. According to the example of the psalms, beg God to hand out justice where you need it. Sometimes, even as you pray, you must remove yourself and those you love from violent situations. You must also ask others for help. These options can be God’s gift to you, his good way of delivering you.
With David, you can say, “O my strength, I will sing praises to you, for you, O God, are my fortress, the God who shows me steadfast love” (Psalm 59:17).